The Clown

Translation by HarukaKou

It is so cold

Within the moon's frozen embrace I can feel this

Pouring down, enveloping me

The solitude

Of night falling softly on me

Hidden behind

The mask of tears and smiles is

The reality

That is the heart inside of me

When did it go?

Disappear and leave from me?

Light all around as I am performing

I must give to them nothing but happiness

I must forget in myself all my sadnesses

My loneliness

But the show must still go on

Even if my own dream has now faded away

Even if love can be betrayed

My heart has already been emptied inside

Even if memories I leave behind

All that would be found is only a clown

And once again

I'm walking into that bright spotlight

Embracing all of those lies

Tonight again

The curtain will still rise over me

In the shadow

Of tears and smiles I'm lingering in still

There inside my true heart lies

Dormant

Only crushed and painted over and over again

So long I have been playing inside of this role

The happines I was sure I had abandoned

And the sadness I had locked away deep inside

Create a smile

And paint it on my face

The little eyes sparkling down at me from above

The innocence of those children watching

Building up my belief and faith in hope again

With their soft, gentle spirit before me

As the mask crumbles and falls finally

I'm so inexperienced in this feeling--love

I don't know how to give love either

A clown, who, in just one sparkling moment felt

Something well up deep inside his heart

And knew what it meant to cry

A clown that now knows what it means to cry